What I know but for a moment have forgotten.....

Lately it seems as if I have forgotten a lot of things. Spiritual things. Things that are of the most importance. Why? I know why. Because I am not taking the time to do the things I know I should be doing. I am slacking spiritually BIG TIME! I need to make some changes.

Since we have moved, I have been wrapped up in many "things." Work, fun, sports and so on. I am wrapped up in the things that really don't matter. I have been wrapped up in the world. I have also missed going to church here and there because of work and I know it has affected me. Deep down I know what is important but it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

I have been struggling within my self lately and it has been hard. Harder than it really should be. I am making it harder that it really needs to be but I am not doing what I know I need to do to make it better. I know what I need to do but lately it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

Eight years ago, I learned a huge lesson in my life. I learned that when I make bad choices, the adversary gains strength over me and life becomes hard. I learned that sometimes our paths can seem too hard to continue on but if we rely on our Heavenly Father we can conquer those difficulties. I learned that when I rely solely on myself, I only fail. I learned that when I am prayerful and when I study that I become strong and I gain the strength I need to get through ANYTHING! I know this. I know this deep down to the deepest part of my soul but lately it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

I know that when I become spiritually lazy that the adversary sneaks in. I know that he wants nothing more than to make me miserable. Heavenly Father wants the complete opposite. I know that in these moments of difficulty that I am being tested. He wants to know how I will cope. Will I rely on the world or will I humble myself and rely on him? All I have to do is ask him to help me, it is that simple. he is there, I just need to open the door. For some reason, I am dragging this process out. I know this but lately it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

I know that what the world has to offer can not compare to what Heaven has to offer. Nothing in this world can bring the joy that heaven can bring. I know this but lately it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

I know that it is never to late to change and that I CAN BE and DESERVE TO BE a happy young woman. I know this but lately it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

I know that Heaven Father loves me enough to give me trails so that I can learn and grow. He doesn't give me trials to punish me and it doesn't mean he doesn't care. He does it because he loves me. I need to use this moment as a learning experience and do what I know I should. I know this but lately it seems as if for a moment I have forgotten.

I know that my spiritual being needs more love and attention than my physical being. I can be happy no matter how far I run or how much I weigh. Sometimes I find that I spend more time worrying about my outer appearance than I do about building up my spiritual self. I spend time everyday taking care of my body but I can honestly say that I don't spend that much time on my spirit. I have my priorities a little twisted. I know where they should be. I know this but lately it seems that for a moment I have forgotten.

Today I choose to remember. Today I chose to become a better me. Today I choose to awaken my spirit. Today I choose to become closer to the Lord and rely on him to help me. Today I choose to face my trials head on with his help. Today I choose to not be weak and believe in the strength that he gives me. Today I choose to be more prayerful. Today I choose to open the scriptures for guidance. Today I choose to GROW!