Here I sit...... in my cold, dark, basement in my PJ's wishing it really wasn't here. The reality of it all has set in and I know that I have to accept it. It IS here and I need to get a grip on things. The January FUNK has officially arrived! AAgh! Can someone just time warp me to Spring please? I'm so much happier when the sun is shining and its warm outside. Of all the months in a year, January is my very least favorite. For one...the holidays are done and gone and theres not much to look forward to.
Secondly, family time starts to dwindle a bit. My sister Julie and her son left back to Maryland and I had to say good bye today. I was sad. It took all I had not to cry. I pretended it didn't bother me while I tried to think of something else as I peeled my hard boiled eggs, But it did.....She was here for almost three weeks and I had so much fun with her. We were also with Terry and his family for over a week in Mexico and now that's over. I miss everyone already. Its a real bummer!
Third, the cold weather. I'm sorry but this weather BITES! Its especially hard when you go somewhere nice and sunny and then you have to come back to this junk. Yesterday I couldn't feel my hands after packing the kids in the car. I had winter palsy. It was miserable! I was so spoiled in Mexico because the weather rocked. I ran outside with Loren in 70 degree weather and we hung out on the beach everyday. Now..... I am back in the cold and back on the boring treadmill again. It makes me want to poke my eye out. Running on the treadmill is such a struggle for me. Today Rowan even asked to go back to his bed in Mexico. He has also missed having his dad around and keeps asking where he is:(
Fourth,I read that dang article about caffeine in last months Ensign. It took me a while to prepare myself to read it. When my Mom told me about it I FREAKED. I just kept saying" I'm not ready, get it away...I'm just not ready" I WAS very curious about what the article would say and a part of me wanted to read it but I knew if I did I would feel the need to make a change. Well.....Last night I decided to read it and then I read The Word of Wisdom after that and guess what...I feel a need to change. "Hello.....My name is Maren and I am a caffeine addict." Now everyone say "Hello, Maren!" There it is. My confession. I am a full blown caffeine addict that has hit rock bottom. I am way worse with soda than EVER before and found myself drinking it morning until night in Mexico. I was drinking that stuff with breakfast! Have any of you had Coka Light? Oh man...its better than any Diet Coke here! Its GOOD! But anyways back to my confession. I know that I have been drinking way too much and have felt my body starting to rely on it. I also noticed how angry I became when there was a box of soda in my fridge with no can of soda inside. There was no way I was going to eat a meal with out it! How dare Loren take my Diet Coke! That's bad huh? I'm bad.....but I am making a commitment to change. I am going to let the only thing I can still enjoy go. Im not doing it cold turkey...Ive got to detox myself slowly. I'm hoping by the end of the month I will be caffeine free. Did I just really write that? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Im sitting here thinking about my major FUNK while writing this post and I have to laugh. Im sure it doesnt help either that its that time of month. Doesnt that just put the icing on the cake!
Baked Tortellini Casserole
18 hours ago
4 comments:
what artical was that?? I want to read it
I had the same reation to the article. Tom and I are weening ourselves of the STUFF, too and it blows!!!!!!!!! Yesterday, I had such a bad headache and feeling like my eyes wouldn't focus and feeling sick to my stomach. I caved and called Tom to pick me up some Diet Dr. Pepper on his way home. There is nothing more gratifying than that first sip!! OMGosh! But we need to stay strong!
Giving up caffeine is not an easy feat and something I haven't been able to accomplish for more than a short period, I always go back. Good luck with that goal. I am also sorry you have felt in a "funk". It will warm up eventually. At least we still have some sun during the winter, poor Melissa in Seattle will go months without even seeing the sun. I know its not much. Sorry! I'm trying. Dave gets the same way in the winter. At least he has Amtgard to get him out and let him run around, that seems to help. He does it all winter. : )
Wow, you sound totally bummed out! So glad we get to see you tomorrow. We picked our colors and such for the house today. They are saying about 60 days...ahhh I hope we can sell that quickly. We're still putting stuff in storage so our house looks better for showing. I do have to say that I am done with this cold and dismal winter. But I am so, so, so excited to live closer to you guys again. So is Alex. Our house is 4488 Milford. Just a block or two north of you and a couple houses in. They are painting the outside gree, but I don't know how far they are.
Post a Comment